Tarot Reading...on this full moon night...

This one is dead on....

Selected Deck:	World Spirit Tarot		Select a different Deck or Layout
Selected Layout:	Celtic Cross		About the Deck

YOUR TAROT READING

ABOUT THE CARDS IN YOUR READING

Seven of Cups In the Cover position Indicates the querent in relationship to the present situation. Meaning: Bringing your visions down to earth requires choosing among the brimming cups. Are you following your dreams or just dreaming? Balancing your creative inspiration with some practicality can transform what is now only wishful thinking into reality. Return to Top

Strength In the Cross position Represents the positive forces or assets in the querent's favor. If this card should happen to be a negative card, it indicates the nature of an obstacles that is hindering progress. (The card in this position is always interpreted in its upright manner.) Meaning: You may find the courage to take risks, face your fears, begin a daunting project, or persevere in a difficult situation. This card also asks you to look at the balance in your life between subduing your passions and expressing them. And remember the quiet voice reminding you that great strength can be found in small things. Return to Top

Nine of Cups In the Beneath position Can be viewed as a message from the "higher self." It can also reflect the querent's potential aspirations. Meaning: The Nine of Cups is known fondly as the “wishing card.” Now is the time to visualize your desires and intentions, for chances are good that your dreams will come true. Financial security, health and vitality, companionship, love, and happiness are among the blessings you can ask of this card. Fortune is smiling upon you, so make the best of this opportunity. Return to Top

Ace of Wands In the Crown position Represents past events and influences that color and give rise to the current situation. Meaning: The Ace of Wands, like all the aces, holds magnificent potential. This card presents the best qualities of the suit of fire: strength, power, inspiration, passion, and transformation. This upsurge of creativity marks an auspicious time to begin new projects and take on new challenges Return to Top

Nine of Wands In the Behind position Represents the preoccupation of the subconscious which filters into waking life, affecting moods and outlook. This is the underlying theme of dreams and the emotional undercurrent in the querent's life. Meaning: The Nine of Wands warns against being constantly on “red alert.” Ask yourself how much defensiveness is enough in this situation? How much is just paranoia, an over-reaction based on hard knocks of the past? If a challenge does arise, you will be in a better position to meet it than you may think. Dedication, discipline, and persistence have prepared you for whatever comes your way, so don’t get so geared up for trouble that you sit around waiting for it. If all your energy goes into protecting what you have, nothing real has been gained. Return to Top

The Empress In the Before position Represents the state of the querent's relationships with others. Meaning: In a reading, the Empress calls on you to love and care for yourself, body and soul. Follow your emotions and listen to your instincts. She also asks you to embody her qualities of nurturance, and give something of your own glory to the world. Return to Top

Five of Wands In the Self position Indicates the querent's psychological state and attitudes which can greatly affect the outcome of the matter. Meaning: If you find yourself fighting another, see if you can find the source of the trouble. It could just be a misunderstanding that has led to this fiery struggle. Then again, a genuine conflict of interest may be at the root of it. Either way, maintain a sense of fair play; there’s no need for things to get ugly. If you let your anger get the better of you, the chance of someone getting hurt increases. Lashing out may be gratifying in the moment, but real violence and an enduring loss of trust may result. The repercussions could last for a long time. Be confident yet playful in the face of opposition. Just don’t get too cocky; compromise may be necessary. Don’t worry—given the dynamic nature of the wands, your creativity is sure to surge and burn away the source of tension. Return to Top

Ten of Cups In the House position Represents the querent's environment and unseen forces influencing the situation. Meaning: This card celebrates the joys of familial love. It speaks to the special trust that is built over time through sharing trials and adventures. This understanding lends a quality of security, contentment, and harmony to one’s life. In our busy world, the simple pleasures of domestic life are easy to overlook. This card asks you to take a moment to appreciate your life, your home, and your loved ones. Open your heart, dance with the universe, and feel the love that pours forth for you. Return to Top

Five of Swords In the Hopes position Indicates the hopes and fears of the querent. Meaning: Hopes have been shattered, ambitions crushed, vulnerabilities exploited by others. The enemy could be another individual, “the system,” or your own shortcomings or lack of self-respect. In any case, the defeat brings humiliation and a sense of helplessness. Life may feel like a cruel joke. These humbling circumstances are not completely grim. Pain can be a profound catalyst for growth, and dissolution offers the opportunity for a new start. To avoid being caught in a spiraling dynamic of bitterness and treachery, resign yourself to losing the battle. Search for the lessons that lie in the ruins. If you are the one who feels powerful and conquering at this time, ask yourself how you got here. Does a trail of others’ tears lie in your wake? When people gain at the expense of others, everyone ultimately loses. Return to Top

Two of Pentacles In the Outcome position Indicates the outcome of the matter. Meaning: The Two of Pentacles marks the search for equilibrium during a very busy time. You are juggling a life full of projects and commitments, trying to find the resources to support them all. Your life is a balancing act between worldly affairs and inner challenges, responsibilities and having fun. The juggler’s trick is to maintain grace, gaiety, and adaptability in the midst of change. She shows you how to combine outer achievements with inner growth, allowing one to feed the other. If you can manage to keep up your present commitments, this is an excellent time to begin new projects. Money and energy are available for these endeavors, but you will need to take a few risks and make full use of your talents. Even if your hands are full, you have the opportunity to learn to see the sacredness in daily tasks, and develop spiritually through work and play.

I'm so blessed.

Last week, I was feeling very alone. My friends were busy with their lives, and that little demon "Lonely" started creeping in on me. On Friday, I received a call from my friend Mark, who lives in Nashville and he let me know how one of our mutual friends was doing and that he had asked about me and wanted to get in touch with me but didn't have my new number.

I got the information and gave him a call, then was able to laugh and joke around for a while. I can't tell you how good it felt to be able to talk to someone I hadn't spoken with since January and missed dearly. We talked for a while, then made plans to get together and have Mark join us as well. They came up to visit with me this past weekend. It was fantastic to have some old friends come visit when I was feeling that bit of loneliness creep in.

Veteran's Day

I'd really like to take the time to thank all Veterans - past and present - for their service.

Today, at the kids' school, they had their Grandparents day and they showed a video about veterans. It was only a three minute video, but it was so moving- it had me wiping away tears. Just that kind of heart felt, thank you, pull yourself away from your iPod, DS, laptop, conversations or any other distraction... sit and watch, listen, and see/realize what the word VETERAN means.

Sacrifice for one's country... and for those I know personally who have served, the willingness to do it all over again- because it meant they were protecting their rights and the rights of all citizens here.

My grandparents both served in the Navy during WWII. My grandfather also served in Korea. My grandmother was a part of the WAVES. I have within me, a deep appreciation for those who devoted their time and their lives for this country. Today's the day the whole country pays tribute, but every day is truly one of appreciation.

Again, thank you to all who have served, all who are serving, and all who plan on serving our country in the future.

Cool song found on an old LP...

I think I'm going to download the whole iTunes album. I'm diggin' it all right now... but I love these lyrics.

Renaissance - I Think Of You

I love you like a stream
Flows restless to the sea
See you like the mist
Touches clouds, touches me

See you in the stars
Whereever you may be
I think of you
Think of you

If ever youre near
And have some time to spend
I love you every way
Love you like a friend

And then when you leave
A whisper in my mind
I think of you
Think of you

When I see a bird
Fly over to the sea
And the sun in the sky
Is shining warm and free

And when I feel the wind
Blow cool over me
I think of you
Think of you

Night Visions Between Worlds

Between Worlds

Sheer exhaustion rips through me

I collapse into bed

Wrap myself in blankets

And close my eyes.

Instead of drifting into dreams

You visit me while I

Suspend myself

Between time and space

Between worlds.

In those moments of silence

Souls connect

I speak without speaking

You hear without sound

You know, I feel

Colors and emotions

Symphonically swirl

Around our energies

Between worlds.

You leave me alone again

I feel refreshed

I feel renewed

The pain is gone

I'm ready to move on

I've got to let you go

I'll miss you till

We're suspended again

Between worlds.

-Audrey Korshoff 2010

Fly Me To The Moon...

I should add that these lyrics mean something to me - In other words, hold my hand..

Just wanted to post it... it's been a while since I've shared anything. I've been busy making my own dreams come true. Speaking of the "moon", I've been busy with my Lady Luna Luxuries soap & candle line...

It's been a while.

I've had some quiet moments of reflection in the past six weeks... but I've also had a very busy few weeks.

I've been tested, I've been tried... I've found strength in myself, and in my spirituality.

I offered my friendship and love to a friend, found it offered in return, and then had it carved from within me in a moment of someone else's jealous rage. I went through the emotional stages of loss, and truthfully, though I don't like the person who tore a friendship apart for selfish and jealous reasons, I find a greater fault in the friend who didn't stand up for me, defend my honor and believe in who I am over whatever someone else said for their benefit. I hurt more because the person who told me I was family, didn't bother to talk to me about whatever was said by someone else. I never got the benefit of a conversation- and maybe that's just because said person was scared.

I finally thought that I was in a safe zone. I wasn't boy crazy, I wasn't head over heels, I didn't have a crush or get involved in a toxic relationship. I wasn't involving anything physical. It was just the presence and friendship of two people who appreciated each other's company and conversation.

I was not falling in love, just practicing a friendship-love... that was so fulfilling and energizing and healthy for me...and to have it struck down and severed so unexpectedly hurt me worse than any other heartbreak I've ever known.

Over the past few weeks, I've grown stronger, more guarded. I'm not sure if it's a good thing- but I have focused more clearly on myself and my children- and I've been doing it successfully. I have been working my ass off in about 10 different directions, trying to make some of the things I wanted to happen, happen. There are always some moments or memories that catch me off guard though, just when I am content to close and lock the door behind me.

I don't know what's sadder- how much I miss my friend, or how much my children do- and hearing them say your name at random moments, not knowing how to handle it. Tonight, Joe and I were planning his 11th birthday party, and I asked him who he wanted to invite to his party. After his classmates (only boys) were listed, he added three more names to the list- and said he hoped that you'd be able to make it, and your children too. I just smiled and said that I didn't know what your schedule was, but that I hoped you could too. Inside, it was like someone ripped out a few fresh stitches.

I'm not sure what the future will bring. All I can say at this moment is that I'm truly grateful for the happy moments. I'm truly grateful for the laughter, the smiles, the conversations and the fresh breath of life it seemed you brought into my life. You helped me shine vibrantly again- sharing my creativity openly once more. In moments of my own weaknesses, you reminded me to never settle for anything less than I deserved. You showed me just where to find that extra boost of my own inner strength when I needed it most. You are familiar to me. As I was trying to help you re-light your own spiritual fire, you helped me by adding accelerant to mine.

I'm grateful for every moment that was spent with my children, and every laugh and smile you brought to their eyes and heart. It has been a tough road for them these past few years, and yet they welcomed you and embraced you as a part of our family. Some of the best memories I have of the past few months, involve you making them laugh hysterically.

I recently found a picture of you smiling. It wasn't the cheesy half-hearted smile I've seen in years past, but a genuine, honest happy gigantic grinning smile. The kind of smile that lights up not just your face, but the room as well. The kind of smile that made me smile just by seeing the picture. I wish only smiles like that for you in the future.

Though I've been hurt, I have no regrets about any of the time we spent encouraging one another. Wounds heal. I have faith and I believe that somewhere down the line, you'll remember me and the children fondly. Perhaps enough to mend fences- and if you wish to, you'll find me there offering support and supplies.

I know you'll probably never read this... but it's ok, I feel like once it's posted to my blog and sent off into the universe, I think you'll know it regardless. Part of me thinks you already do.

In the mean time, I keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I think of you as a part of my family and would only wish good things upon you and your life. I pray for angels to be at your side, I pray for you to find, hold on to and multiply your inner strength and belief in yourself. I pray for you to move forward and toward your goals. I give you the space you need to heal your own wounds and figure things out for yourself. I pray for your happiness.

I'm not sure how this started off as my blog and ended up as a letter to you, but God has interesting ways to heal people, and I'll go ahead and leave it as it was typed. Below, a poem.

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God-Breeze

The sun was shining today

The wind blew across the field

Leaves scattered and birds flew

Rays of sunlight reached through the branches of the trees

And I knew

Life goes on

The sun still shines

Souls are ageless.

Timeless and

Eternal

The God-breeze caressed my face

Hugged my heart

And I was healed.