Friday, November 21, 2008
Happy Girl...
New Song - Feelin' like a kid again.
I wrote this, comically, about myself... how even as an adult, I can find myself getting those pre-teen puppy love jitters every now and then, and I chuckle at myself for getting butterflies in my stomach, or whatever it may be... anyway, I'm fairly sure that others can relate... MEN AND WOMEN.... or rather, boys... and girls. :) Enjoy! (let me know what you think!)
Thirty Going On Thirteen
Audrey Korshoff, BMI, doc 11/21/2008
There's something about the way you look at me
Something about the sparkle in your eyes
The way you wrap your arms around my shoulders
Or smile as you walk by...
Yeah you've got me all sorts of confused
My radar is now out of whack
I think about how I would kiss you
And how you might kiss me back
So now here I am all grownup
Just tryin' to play it cool
It's obvious I like you so much
But I don't want to be your fool
Here I am at thirty going on thirteen again
My heart's beating fast and I can't seem
To take this grin off my face
I often find myself staring
At you and I'm entertained
I have to laugh at my actions
Cause I'm thirty, yet thirteen again
I kick myself because I'm so smitten
With the man I know that you are
Is this just a crush or is this serious
Who knows it's never gotten that far...
Here I am at thirty going on thirteen again
My heart's beating fast and I can't seem
To take this grin off my face
I often find myself staring
At you and I'm entertained
I have to laugh at my actions
Cause I'm thirty, yet thirteen again
Yeah, I'm thirty, yet thirteen again.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Painting More...
One of the things that I've been doing over the past couple weeks since getting back has been painting. I'm not sure if it was the complete spiritual renewal while I was there, or if it was a little because I finally felt that it was time... but I went GUNG HO on the painting. I actually plan on painting again today.
While I was in Nashville, with my car all loaded up, I ran into my friend Danny, whose girlfriend Renee has a salon/spa on 16th St (right on Music Row). I gave Renee one of my pieces of art when she was just opening up the salon, for her area. It matched the color schemes perfectly. Well, once she saw that, Danny and her wanted to see what other paintings I had, because they wanted to put more of my artwork in the salon.
Well, when I met up with him, and explained that by the Grace of God, most of my things were salvageable - especially the things that meant the most- he asked if I was able to salvage any paintings. I opened my trunk and showed him that I had most of them.
He offered to buy several, smoke smelling paintings right from my car, and explained that if I could wait a few weeks for payment, he would take all of them, as they were expanding the salon and would need some more art for the walls.
So, when I arrived home, I had almost no paintings left... just the few that I kept because they were so important to me...
It was time, I knew, to quit talkin' about painting, and actually PAINT.
Here are some pictures that I hope you'll enjoy- the whole process of the paintin'... and finished projects. I already have an offer from a myspace friend to purchase at least one of them.
"These Arms of Mine". Also 24" x 24" on wood with a wooden frame, painted black.
**I painted this one, with the intention of it being a gift. He is a new country artist, but longtime songwriter and a friend of mine. He's got a real "soulful" background, and one of his favorite artists is Otis Redding... so... I put on that song... "These Arms of Mine", hit repeat... and found myself with that painting when I was done. Once I was done, I stood back, and it's truly one of my favorites that I've done. It's reminiscent to me, colorwise, of Starry Night.... though I never had any intention of that in there.
I knew I wanted lots of blues, because... well, Otis sings the blues... as does he... And it's more like an open arm hug there, in the light yellow... Flowers need the open arms of the sun, the warmth and all that.... anyway, that's where I got that one. When I paint, I kind of just do it, and it's meditative... that whole image just showed up when I was done. I was hoping to see my friend this weekend, but my budget and his schedule aren't working in our favor. So it will have to wait till I see him after Christmas. Guess he's getting it as a late Christmas gift.
I think this one, I'm gonna call "Love Song". It's 24" x 24" and on wood with a gallery wood frame, painted black. If you're interested in this email me/IM me. It's available for sale.
A very HAPPY me. Wow that was freeing!
This one is 36" x 48"... on gallery wrapped canvas. It is also available for sale. "Healing All Wounds"
I'm so happy that I started again... it's something that is so fulfilling for me. I enjoy it so much!
What do you see in the paintings? I talked with my mom, and she sees some interesting stuff. I always like to see what people find within my artwork! Leave comments and let me know. :)
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Nashville Trip, Part One.
Around the same time, I took a picture of me that just explains what a 12 hour drive does to a mom who just went through the past 36 hours with Halloween parades, parties and birthday celebrations.... oh, and no sleep!
Arriving in Nashville...
I went to my friend Todd's apartment, where I found two women moving furniture out. I was a little confused, because he didn't have women living with him before, and didn't mention it. Todd, who normally is a little on the wild side, was so very sober, subdued and bright eyed. It was such a joy to find him in such a healthy state. He mentioned that he was just trying to get his life in order again. I could not be happier or more excited for my friend. We sat together and chatted, until I got a call that Mark was waiting for me at the restaurant.
Remember how I prayed for my kids pictures, and my grandparents collectibles? Well, I get to the Public Storage office first thing in the morning, just as they were opening, in my sneakers, t-shirt and yoga pants... ready to work.
I get checked in by the fire investigator and led upstairs to my unit, where they open the door. The very first thing I see? My grandfather's face, in his navy blues... in the picture that I had framed of his, with a few of his pins and bands and stuff. Just staring back at me, propped on that old chair of my grandparents (the one I gave birth to Madelyn off the side of). I silently praised God, and thanked him... and was led back downstairs so the workers could begin emptying my unit for me.
The Tale of the First Generation Furby...
The darn Furby, first generation, still in the original packaging survived the FIRE! I took a picture merely with the intent of sending this to F, Sr. and joking that it was still a hot commodity....
Fast forward to today. I've emptied most of the car out (except for some last minute things) and the Furby was residing in the basement. All the kids had seen it, and I told them that it was something special to me and to not touch it.
That's like telling a kid to please not touch any of the candy at Halloween, apparently.
So... I had to go to Walmart today to pay a bill and pick up some quick essentials. I had the neighborhood kids in and out all day, so I asked my neighbor's daughter if she minded sitting with the crew while I ran out real quick. No problem.
I walk back into the house, and she and her friend were on the front porch, so they left before I walked in... and M, my five year old imp, comes toward me saying, "Mom! Look what I have!", holding none other than that precious Furby in her hand, OUT of the box.
When I flip out, yes, I flipped out. I find out that she had an accomplice in this... J, my NINE year old, CUT the box open for her.... I see the box destroyed on the dining room table.
I lined up all three here:
So, the tale of the First Generation Furby goes like this... It was able to survive the trek from eToys.com warehouse to my first apartment, then my second, then my first house, then my second house, then my condo in Nashville, then to my storage unit, managed to survive a fire in the storage unit, rode home with me from TN to PA, then landed in my basement... and finally, met its match with my five year old daughter.
The furby was able to survive a fire, but unable to survive.... my children.
Sigh. There goes the profit on that one. We just can't have nice things!
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Jesus just called...from Nashville.
It rang once, got picked up, and I said hello... but got no answer. I heard some typing, some keypad hitting and then a guy say "Aw, Come On..." and then... "Jesus"... and then click, the phone hung up.
So, "Aw, Come On Jesus" called me.
I'll update about my trip in another blog, probably tomorrow. It's getting late tonight and I'm going to just get in bed since I'm getting heavenly phone calls.
G'Night!
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Crazy Dreams...
I should preface this with explaining that dreaming for me has always been one of those ways that I'm most open to getting messages that are important for me.
Sometimes I just dream, and I know it's a dream. Other times it's more than just a dream. It's clearer, like dreaming in color and vivid memories plus vivid experiences that also include a physical feeling that sometimes lingers after I wake, and then what's makes me understand it's more than just a dream- is that I remember the dream in painstaking detail and can almost call it to mind when I think about it, like hitting a play button for important parts to remember.
In the past few months, I haven't had a lot of them. I've kind of not wanted any for a while because sometimes they freak me out. But they've picked up lately, and I'm not sure why.
So, the first one that was disturbing was a scene where I was driving down the road here in my town on my way home one night. It was winter, cold but not snowy. I specifically remember the roads being a little slick, like black ice... that it was something where I was driving carefully because I knew it was cold and icy. The road splits into a one way as you approach town off the exit, and drive through Dupont. After the split, but before the turn to get to the bypass, I saw a SUV flipped and toward the left side of the road near a two story white squareish building. Other cars had stopped around it. The SUV rear passenger door was open and I could see an adult man's figure suspended by the seatbelt, wearing a collared shirt, I remember stripes and I think blue and yellow from the distance I was seeing it. The man's figure was limp. I didn't see blood, just the body awkwardly positioned from the crash. I think there were other people still in the car, but they didn't have detail associated with them. As I slowed down to pull past the accident so that I could stop to call the police and check on the people, as I was passing the cars involved - I was in the right lane, I felt the car slip a little on a patch of ice and the tail end of my car skidded a little to the right. I regained control, nearly sideswiping a parked car. Possibly tapping it... and pulled forward. I pulled off to the side of the road and put my hazards on. There were other people around. I had my window rolled down and as I was getting ready to get out of my car, this woman came toward me and said "he's dead". I didn't know who HE was, just that she said he was dead. She looked distraught and pretty shocked. As she walked on, past me, I could see that there were police cars and ambulances coming. I knew I didn't have to be there any more, because I hadn't been a witness to the accident itself, so I pulled further forward and turned right onto the road that I normally take to come home, towards the bypass.
I woke up shortly afterwards, then fell back asleep till morning with no more dreams.
The second one I had was a few days later, less local based, more based on spirits... It was two spirits, fighting against each other... I don't know how it was done, but they were clearly in battle. One was a dark grey but I can't describe it as a human figure, it was smaller- no arms or legs, or real shape. The eyes ranged from yellow to red, depending on the intensity. I did not feel like this one was a good spirit. The second was a smaller shape lighter tan with eyes that were non descript. They were there, but weren't penetrating. They were just there. This one was smaller and initially looked like it was being beat up on, but it was inflicting some serious whoop ass on the darker one. At one point, the darker one realized I was watching, and glared at me.
I woke up with my heart racing, and the first thing I did was say my protection prayer that I learned a long, long time ago, and I spent the next fifteen minutes in prayer spreading protection all around the house and property and internally, until I felt full of peace, and fell back into a sound sleep till my alarm went off.
So, it has been a really weird last several nights. Thankfully last night was a sound and peaceful sleep.
I just wanted to document both dreams somewhere...