Some of my newest lyrics...to my newest song...:)

....Love... it's a blessing to share and receive... from friends, family and strangers on the street. A smile, a touch, or a warm embrace, it's the light of love that shows us God's grace. ...

I'll post one of me playing it soon- gotta borrow a guitar for recordin'...

-Audrey Korshoff

And... hey here's another little tidbit from me...


I've loved and lost, I've loved and shown men the door, but through all the heartaches and breaks, I learned to love myself more. :)

The love of my life.

The man who showed me the capacity to love again, loves me. He called me tonight to FINALLY let me know that he's so torn up about me and wants to have us together, forever...

This from the man who has always said he's loved me, but has always found some reason to fight it off, or explain why we can't be together.

He shocked me tonight, and let me know that he can't get me out of his head. That he wants to create a life with me, that he needs me, and loves me. I have waited two years to hear this, but I never expected to hear it. I had pretty much written off the possibility of him ever overcoming his love fear... and just accepted that we would remain friends.

Part of me is absolutely shocked, but the other part of me knows it's just the plain old truth. It's been plainly obvious, and we've admitted to loving one another, we've tried to make it work out in our heads, when it already worked out in our hearts... and we ended up resolving to just stay friends while we sorted out our crazy lives.

He asked me to come spend time with him and his children while they are visiting. He wants my children there too. He wants us to be a family.

I told him that I still loved him and would always love him. I also told him to sleep on it and see if that's what he really wanted. He told me he's slept on it for long enough...that he needs me and loves me and wants me to be his partner.

Oh. God. Help me.

The man that I've loved, loves me and finally wants to do something about it. Oh, my God.

I have to sleep on this, if I can sleep.... I just got blindsided by something I knew was real but had resolved that would never come to pass. Guess that's what's funny about love and tryin' to decide...

I told him I'm going to just take the night to think about it and then we'll see what we can do to work it out... and he ended the conversation with, ok... that's fine. Just come home.

Oh, I'm gonna have to really think about this one... He's my best friend. He's always been someone I have fun spending time with and someone I have dreamed (its been a mutual dream) of building a life and our family together.

Lights, Camera, Action

We started our morning early today, and me with a late night last night. Madelyn and Kaitlyn are part of a movie called Blue Valentine. I'm typing this from the holding room after they just finished filming a scene where they were leaving the building with their "parents"..

I don't know much about the movie, other than it's supposed to be a love story and has Ryan Gosling in it. He's cuter in person. Taller than I thought he'd be.

The girls are dressed in red, white and blue and will later be part of a musical number. It's a compilation of Yankee Doodle and My Country Tis Of Thee. All the kids are so cute and it's really a lot of fun to be here with them getting the chance to be in this movie. Sure, they're just extras, but it will be cool to see the movie on the big screen.

We are on the move again...

Now the girls are back in the auditorium that they set up so cute, all patriotic with silver hanging stars and a flag background... they're going to be filming the musical number now, and all the parents have been shuffled back to the holding area. While watching them rehearse earlier, Miss Madelyn was quite the showman, just like she does at home. Kate did a great job too, she's in the back row, standing... and Madelyn is in the middle row, smack in the middle, kneeling- she gets on her knees and sits up so straight, and squares right off without being told, she really looks like she knows what she's doing, and like she's been doing it for years.

I guess this is partly why she talks to my bedroom mirror whenever she comes up to talk to me, she's staging herself even with simple conversations with me. Still really cute.

The food here is great, they're feeding us all well. There has been an ample supply of chips and such for all the kids to knosh on.

So far, I've had two celebrity spottings, Michele (can't remember her last name right now even though I know it- she was married to Heath Ledger) and Ryan Gosling. We've had very little interaction with either, but Ryan seems to be more personable in general. Everyone just rushes around, then waits, rushes around then waits.

Either way, it's been a really fun day, and the kids have had a blast. Kaitlyn has made a new friend, and Madelyn plays her friend's sister in one scene. I think it's because they're both wearing white dresses.

More to come later, I'm off to play on facebook and then hopefully find a plug so I can maintain my internet fix.

School's Out... for the summer!

And we're planning our get away! More details about our trip, and the bulk of my blogging this summer will be done on www.singlemomroadtrip.com. I am currently looking for donations and selling a sponsorship to help defray the cost of our travels.

Our budget is a tight one though, and the majority of our spending will be done for lodging/campgrounds (I'm packing up a "camp kitchen"). In addition, we'll be spending most of our time with family and friends to cut down on the financial burden. The first three weeks of our trip are "lodging free".

Anyway... you'll be able to see videos and photos from our trip being uploaded, and we also have a fan page on Facebook, so you can follow us on Facebook as well! Just look up "SingleMomRoadTrip.com" if you're having trouble finding us.

I have six days to finish cleaning the house, packing up our things in the car, and figuring out the best way to store all the thing we need. More on that at the other blog too.

Some people think I'm crazy, but I am really excited for this adventure. It's one that I've always wanted to take... and I think it will be something that the kids and I remember and treasure for years to come.