Thursday, September 25, 2008

Things Lookin' Up...

I'm always excited when life takes some pretty cool twists and turns. Even though I was worried about the whole lay off and still have some issues to resolve, it seems as though there are some bright spots on the horizon.

I told a friend of mine about the lay off the other day, and positioned it like this:
"So, I was laid off today.
Shocked. Yes.
Fear, a little.
Realizing that there is more to come in my life, and new opportunities? Priceless."

He told me I have a "great fucking attitude". Haha! He's right.

I have potentially two immediate job openings, and that excites me.

In the meantime, I am feeling sick. Everyone was sick at the office and I had managed to avoid it, but now I'm feeling the scratchy throat and feverish, so I am kind of laying around today.

I have an appointment with my attorney later today to go over some paperwork, which is also another good thing.

Overall, I'm enjoying the day and trying to let my throat get some rest. Ouchies. Soreness.

I also am going to point out that it is the first time in over 2 years I have watched an episode of All My Children. It's funny how some things never change... ah, soap operas, you can count on them for cheesy acting and ridiculous plot lines to take your mind off your every day concerns!

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

The Economy Sucks.

I was laid off yesterday. I was told, in a room full of others also getting laid off at the same time, that the company I work for was unable to make payroll and they were forced to begin layoffs.

I was told that none of us were being terminated, we were simply being laid off, and if the chance arose for things to turn back around, we would be rehired if we were available and were willing. The firings were not performance based, but rather based on the fact that the company is currently dealing with issues related to the crappy economy. **edited for clarity**

Either way, it really sucked.

I think what was more frustrating was my intense desire to try and make things work for such a long time, even though I kind of saw the writing on the wall for the company as a whole, I didn't ever think I would be among the first to be let go.

So, I filed for unemployment last night when I got home... and I will be figuring out what to do with the welfare offices, food stamps, etc. in the interim. After all, I have four kids to feed. Gotta do whatcha gotta do.

**Also edited to include: I no longer represent the company I used to work for, and have not named it here. Also, as above, this blog is my opinion based on my life experiences. **

Monday, September 22, 2008

Target E-Gift Cards

I was going "window shopping" for the kids and some more wintry clothing... Can't buy anything extra for a little while, but I did come across this great gift idea for me for the holidays...



Attention family and friends - Gift Cards. Better yet, E-Gift Cards! I have to say I'm in love with this idea. Target Gift Cards are the ULTIMATE perfect gift for me and my children.



Please, do not send kids toys... they all end up on the floor and eventually the trash. We don't have time and the kids have pretty much outgrown most of the toys that they used to play with.

If you must send something toy-ish, all my kids are pretty much the same.



They like (note links): Webkinz, Tech Decks, Wii Games (Mom's dying for the Wii Fit!), Books, Movies and some crafts.





Please, please, do not give us AMEX gift cards. Here is the reason why... It's not because I'm being rude, but it's because gift givers need to know that the American Express gift card is a royal pain in the ass to use just about anywhere.



You have to know the exact gift card amount at all times - it won't apply the balance then let you pay the difference. You have to know it. AND... here's the kicker... if you don't know it and you call in, it costs you 50 cents to find out the balance unless you check it online.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

I have lots to say. Always.

Getting worried more about the state of our country.




I had to go grocery shopping really badly this morning. So I left the kids with our neighborhood babysitter (she lives across the street) and darted out to the store. It's ALWAYS cheaper to NOT bring the kids.

Being budget conscious, I'm usually a label checker- and price smart buyer.


I really haven't bought a lot of meats lately, because, well... money. But I had initially planned on buying chicken for this week, because I could turn it into a variety of meals.


As I strode into the store, I passed what are usually my favorite part of the store simply because of financial issues. Yeah, fresh fruits and fresh vegetables were not on the list this week. I thought about my weight gain over the past year, and I know that finances (or lack thereof) are playing a major part in my size. I have no choice but to accept that at the moment.

I passed the deli counter, simply because there was no way I could justify the lunch meat in that section. A quick glance showed me a pound of ham at $7.99.


I walked through the bread aisle and picked up the 99 cent king sized loaves needed for kids lunches. I also picked up bagels and hot dog rolls. I had to pass (still pissed off about this) the peanut butter and jelly section. Argh.

I grabbed some cans of beef ravioli and corned beef hash down the 99 cent aisle. Corned beef hash is J's favorite breakfast treat. I found that they were having a 2 for $5 sale on the big family boxes of cereal, so I grabbed two of the boxes of Honeycombs. After that, I picked up two boxes of cereal bars (one strawberry, one apple cinnamon) for the kids lunches - they have snacks that they need to have midmorning, so I figured that was probably a decent snack choice.

At this point, I'm feeling pretty successful as a shopper. I've gotten a good start at getting things cheap, and I head to the meat section. Without so much as a glance to the pork or beef, I walk right over to the chicken breasts and spy a really nice family package of chicken, containing about 6 chicken breasts. I leaned in and saw the price on the package, and thought, that has to be a typo, that shouldn't be a 1 in front of that 9... no, it really was. A pack of six chicken breasts showed a $3.60/lb label and it was over $19 for the package. What!?!?! Wow. The one below it was $18. In the freezer across from the fresh meats, there were bags of breaded all breast meat chicken nuggets 2 for $6. Two bags of chicken nuggets won out over the fresh chicken by $13.

I picked up some of the pre-packaged lunch meats, which usually are about $2.50 when they're on sale, between $2.49 and $2.99 on average, and found that now the CHEAPEST one was priced at $3.19. The highest in the section was $4.09. It's true that the price of gas is really killing a good number of Americans. Why is it cheaper to get processed food rather than fresh food?

I picked up a gallon of milk, noticed it was about $3.60 too. Cheese, also more expensive. Cream Cheese was expensive. Eggs, ridiculously doubled in price in the past year. Even the cheap margarine spread was $1.19.

I know my kids and I enjoy cheese and crackers as a snack, so I got an extra thing of cheese and went to find the crackers we like - a multigrain Wheat Thin that is usually about $3 for the big box, as they're frequently on special. No special this week. They were $4.19. I passed them up for a different kind of cracker- that box was $2.49. I grabbed a box of generic Saltines (one of my favorites with soup or ham salad) and realized that the generic box, which is usually around 89 cents, was now at $1.29.


I decided with the expenditures at the store, I would bring lunch this week to work, so I stocked up on the 10 for $10 section... and got myself some 2/$.89 burritos as well as some ham and cheese pockets for the microwave at work. For my breakfasts, I am on the bagel and cream cheese plan for workdays.


I just see the costs of everything spiking... and that concerns me. I'm a single mom, I work my ass off, and it seems as though there's still never enough to go around. My phone bill is due, my car insurance is due, my car payment is coming up... and with such a budget, there's two things here. One, I'm not making enough money and two, the costs of life are ridiculously high at the moment, leading to a quality of life that pretty much blows.



One interesting thing from last night

I saw my army friend last night and saw some pretty graphic photos of what life is REALLY like as a soldier in Iraq.


To say the least, they were disturbing - but at the same time, as he was explaining what was going on over there and what their "rules of engagement" were, as well as what is being done to innocent civilians in the name of a Jihad, well... I think it's something Americans SHOULD be shown.


These photos would NEVER be on the New York Times or on CNN. The truth is, I don't think most people would be able to handle seeing them. Surprisingly, I wasn't disgusted, or moved to tears. There was only one photo that made the mama bear in me growl hard and fast...


One of the photos showed two small children, dead, they were shot execution style by the Iraqi insurgents - two of many, when they raided a daycare in Iraq. The children were about 2 and 4 years old respectively. Now I know why we fight. I would fight too. Seeing those pictures were difficult but at the same time affirming.


J shared with me that he had come home to less than welcoming America. He's been called a list of names including "son-killer". After seeing pictures that represented what he did and saw day in and day out to protect our basic rights as Americans, I simply cannot understand how any American could not support the men and women who fight for this country.


So, please, even if you don't agree with the war - or the reasons for it - at the very least, support the American soldiers who are defending our rights to be able to express our own opinions.


I did get to see one really cool picture of J that I want. It was him, at sunrise, in his army garb, crouched down and aiming his gun (with scope). The sun was just coming up behind him, making his body and gun look like a shadow in the glaring fresh light. It was one of those pictures that makes him look like G.I. Joe. Fitting, I think.


My weekend wraps up.

The kids and I are finishing up straightening up the house, I just made lunch not that long ago, and since the day is still nice, we were thinking about heading to a park... but I just got texted about meeting up with the guys that I will see on Tuesday to jam for a bit and go over some songs for Tuesday night. Oh, cool, they'll come here around 7 tonight to play some songs.


I have to say, I'm pretty psyched about the whole music events lately. I'm really finding some more and more musically oriented people and I'm really enjoying these random singing/jamming events.

I'm once again being encouraged by random strangers to pursue singing every time I open my mouth to do it. It's pretty awesome. It's happened for years, and I've been getting more and more comfortable jumping up on stage and doing something at random as well. Just feeling it and not being afraid that it won't be "right".


I've learned that it's the randomness in music that is sometimes what makes it "right", and seeing people dance, sing and groove along to what you'd doing is instant feedback that it sounds a-ok.



So that is all for now, I have to go play Sargeant Mom and make sure the kids actually pick up their stuff so I can finish vacuuming and then do laundry.


Saturday, September 20, 2008

Life's Funny Like That....

A really cool incidence.

I went out last night up to the Honkytonk for the first time in kind of a while. Lefty had called, said he was going to head up there, and I hadn't seen him in a few months, so I decided to see if I could go for a while.

Anyway, while I was up there, I saw a few familiar faces, and one that I semi-recognized but couldn't place 100%. He looked familiar, but I couldn't remember his name.

When we caught each other's eyes, we engaged in small talk, etc... and then one of the regular bar patrons- he's a nice old guy, but always kind of gets you talking to him and doesn't let you stop- walked in, and I leaned over to Joe and said, "Can you do me a really big favor and just move over a seat (closer to me), just sit here so this guy doesn't sit here and talk my ear off?".

He laughed, and moved over.

So we exchanged the hellos again and said basically that we both thought the other person looked familiar. So we started sharing life stories. He's in the army and has spent the better part of the past 4 1/2 years in Iraq and Afghanistan. While we were talking, he said sometimes it sucks when people don't understand why he has to "kill people for a living"... and I said, "Well, it's got it's purpose- and over there it's a kill or be killed situation, so... You are protecting my right to sit at this bar, say what I want and drink a beer without feeling oppressed, so I understand and appreciate what you do."

He sat back in the chair, smiled a little.... and then I leaned in, and out of nowhere I said, "Are you a sniper?"

The look of surprise on his face was priceless. "How did you know?", he asked.

I explained that he reminded me- in both looks and conversation, very much like a good friend of mine that I knew in Nashville. I went on to say that my friend in Nashville was a decorated war hero, and was teaching sniping school at Fort Campbell. My friend Todd is actually the #2 Sniper in the nation (at last check).

Joey's eyes lit up, and he said, "Holy Shit, I cannot believe you know Todd D., that's completely uncanny", and I laughed because I not only figured out what part of army work he did, but I also referenced someone he knew.

As it turns out, Joey and Todd had been overseas together more than once. They know each other REALLY well. Life's funny like that. Everything comes full circle at some point. It was just a really cool coincedence and something that was just fodder for more conversation.

We spent the rest of the night talking about Todd, sharing stories about our lives and laughing with his friend too (also named Joe).

I mentioned Paintball and my new love of playing the game. Joe mentioned that if I ever wanted to go to a range, he would teach me how to shoot. I jumped at the chance, telling him that a long time ago, Todd had volunteered the same thing, but either money or time on both our parts just kept postponing the trip to the range. He said he would be happy to take me to the range some time and we exchanged numbers.

Now I gotta find Todd's number from one of my old phones and tell him I met an old friend of his at random in Dunmore, Pennsylvania.

How cool is that?

Thursday, September 18, 2008

My Week of Health

Monday's Dentist Trip

I went to the dentist Monday, a new doctor here in the Back Mountain. Actually Back Mountain Dental Group, with Dr. Definnis. Wow! They are a great office!


I was referred by my friends at work, and it was a great referral. Their staff was friendly, gentle and all around helpful. I would recommend them to anyone in this area!


I have to go back for a cavity filling... and they recommended that my wisdom teeth get yanked by an orthodontic surgeon (they've all broken through, thank God no impacted teeth!).


Today's Doctor's Visit

And I met my new local doctor today, part of the Inter Mountain Medical Group. I was there first thing in the morning and I really like my new doctor. I'm actually in love...


Not with him, but with... this guy here:

That's IKE!
Ike is my doctor's child. He only comes to the office on Thursdays, because he's being trained to be a physical therapy dog... and since he was a puppy he's been coming into the office every Thursday.
He's a really beautiful dog.
Anyway, I like my doctor too. He's low key, into being a pretty preventative doctor. We mesh on healthcare issues.
I have to go back for bloodwork sometime this week, but I have to fast first, which means that should be interesting!
Anyway, it was a good week of Health related trips.
I also made an appointment for my GYN care appointment too! In the same office.
Pretty excited... now, next week is Legal week. Hahaha!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Duet... Impression.

IMPRESSION
copyright: Audrey Korshoff 2008 (doc 9/16/08) BMI

MAN:
I look back and see, the man I used to be
so afraid to love you that it hurt
I was a coward way back then
didn't know just what life was about

And I'm sorry
because I hurt you
And I regret
all the things i did
It wasn't really my intention
to leave you with that impression

WOMAN:
Well your actions, spoke louder than your words
You left your mark on me.
I used to be weak, but now I'm strong
Except each time I see your face.

And I'm sorry
because you hurt me
And I regret
All the things you did
It wasn't really my intention
To let you leave your impression.

BOTH:
The time has passed
But the memory stays
I can change tomorrow,
but my yesterdays remain the same

CHORUS (BOTH):
And I'm sorry
(because I hurt you) That you hurt me
And I regret
(All the things I did) All the things you did
It wasn't really, my intention
(to leave you with that impression) To let you leave your impression.

BRIDGE:
WOMAN: I can accept your apology
Because I know you won't hurt me...
BOTH: Ever... again...

And I'm sorry
(because I hurt you) That you hurt me
And I regret
(All the things I did) All the things you did
It wasn't really, my intention
(to leave you with that impression) To let you leave your impression.

___________________

It's been such a long time since I felt so inspired to write a song. And for this one I've got the tune too. That happens every now and then to me.

Anyway, when I was a teenager, I was friends with this boy, who I really cared for. He went off to college, and I was a senior in high school when he came back to visit one night. We had always kissed before (nothing more), and I was excited to see him.

The date rape drug was pretty famous back then as being a popular thing to do to women. I was rufied.

By my friend.

I didn't realize what it was until the next day, and I didn't have sex with him, but I woke up/came to choking on a body part. That was my first introduction to that body part as a teenager. Not a great one.

Anyway, years later, he actually apologized to me at my high school reunion.

I came home tonight to find his picture on my facebook account, and he has since married one of our former classmates. The song just flowed.... but there's the story behind it.

Completely unglamourous, but full of emotion.

I've dealt with it, and I've moved on... but I think some experiences never leave you. Seeing his picture, brought back all of it. The friendship, the betrayal, and even the apology - as an adult.

Hm.