Tuesday, December 2, 2008

December Already?

I cannot believe it is already December of 2008. I don't know where this year has gone. Mainly getting life organized again, I guess. My thirtieth year is drawing to a close, and I feel like it flew by. I didn't do ANYTHING I initially planned on doing for my thirtieth. I guess I'll have to celebrate my 30+1 the way I wanted to celebrate 30.

I have realized what I want in life... it's a pretty good place to be when you know what you want.

Keith just stopped by, surprising me with a knock at the door. Haha! In the UPS uniform. Awesome. There's something about that brown uniform. It made me laugh when he asked if I had any packages that needed delivering.

I'm about ready to make myself lunch. Dinner is already prepped and in the fridge till about 4pm. I feel so industrious today. I even prepped dinners for later in the week!
I went grocery shopping at both Redners and Aldi, found a couple Christmas goodies for the kids too!

Frank is getting them the DS units, so I'm in charge of finding CHEAP games en masse. I'm probably going to run up to GameStop later this week, maybe tomorrow... and see if I can find any that are on the "Santa" list.

Anyway, I'm off to start some baking. Making banana muffins, apple crisp, oatmeal cookies and some rolls for later. I figure by the time the kids get home I should have at least the cookies and dessert made. The bread should be rising... and be ready for rolls later.

I really missed being domestic. I can only hope that someday I can do this again full time... and not worry about making money to pay the bills. I read on the inside of one of my old cookbooks... and it said.. "An industrious wife is a man's best savings box". I shared it with my mom, and she laughed at the box reference (yeah, my MOM laughed... I get my gutter mind from her), but we agreed on how it is true. It takes time to prepare foods, plan menus, and grocery shop, do laundry. Being a housewife is a full time job in itself, being a mom is a full time job too! Add another full time job on top of that and every now and then you feel like you can't keep up. And it's true, somewhere some things suffer.

When I was working full time, we were all eating a lot of QUICK meals, whether I fed the kids chicken nuggets, or mac and cheese... Now, I get to make garlic chicken with broccoli, or beef and noodles with mashed potatoes, or sesame ginger chicken... Veggies with every meal... The time and energy to put love into the foods I make.

I spent $160 between the two stores today. $78 at Redners and $80 at ALDI. Of course, in the ALDI, there was about $30 of non-food purchases (a mini-guitar for the girls for Christmas, hat/glove set and a pair of cordoroys for Madelyn), so I spent $130 on food items.

Barring buying extra milk, that should feed all of us for the next 2 weeks. I stocked up the cabinets again and I have just about everything I need to make treats for the kids and dinners and plenty of room for leftovers.

Keith and Ron have been overjoyed that I've had extra leftovers over the past several weeks to feed them too! Ron packed up a bunch of Tupperwares for me to fill up for them. Haha!

Anyway, off to bake.

I need to find a Christmas tree... this week... I don't have a stand, so I can't get a real one. I should check Craigslist. Hm. Ok, off to do that first.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Happy Girl...


This is me, while stuck at a dead stop in traffic last night...
It's a rearview mirror shot.
Hey, I don't get mad sitting in traffic, I get bored.
I liked the red glow of the lights...
I'm a happy girl here. (despite the traffic)
Oh, and I got to give my friend his painting! So it all worked out... plus just an incredible night of music and overall fun!

New Song - Feelin' like a kid again.

I think we all have moments where we don't really feel grown up... I know I do all the time. I watch EVERYTHING in life. I watch people's interactions, I listen to things going on around me... if you ask my mother, she'll tell you I came out of the womb wide-eyed and checkin' out my new world.

I wrote this, comically, about myself... how even as an adult, I can find myself getting those pre-teen puppy love jitters every now and then, and I chuckle at myself for getting butterflies in my stomach, or whatever it may be... anyway, I'm fairly sure that others can relate... MEN AND WOMEN.... or rather, boys... and girls. :) Enjoy! (let me know what you think!)

Thirty Going On Thirteen
Audrey Korshoff, BMI, doc 11/21/2008

There's something about the way you look at me
Something about the sparkle in your eyes
The way you wrap your arms around my shoulders
Or smile as you walk by...

Yeah you've got me all sorts of confused
My radar is now out of whack
I think about how I would kiss you
And how you might kiss me back

So now here I am all grownup
Just tryin' to play it cool
It's obvious I like you so much
But I don't want to be your fool

Here I am at thirty going on thirteen again
My heart's beating fast and I can't seem
To take this grin off my face
I often find myself staring
At you and I'm entertained
I have to laugh at my actions
Cause I'm thirty, yet thirteen again

I kick myself because I'm so smitten
With the man I know that you are
Is this just a crush or is this serious
Who knows it's never gotten that far...

Here I am at thirty going on thirteen again
My heart's beating fast and I can't seem
To take this grin off my face
I often find myself staring
At you and I'm entertained
I have to laugh at my actions
Cause I'm thirty, yet thirteen again

Yeah, I'm thirty, yet thirteen again.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Painting More...

Finally!

One of the things that I've been doing over the past couple weeks since getting back has been painting. I'm not sure if it was the complete spiritual renewal while I was there, or if it was a little because I finally felt that it was time... but I went GUNG HO on the painting. I actually plan on painting again today.

While I was in Nashville, with my car all loaded up, I ran into my friend Danny, whose girlfriend Renee has a salon/spa on 16th St (right on Music Row). I gave Renee one of my pieces of art when she was just opening up the salon, for her area. It matched the color schemes perfectly. Well, once she saw that, Danny and her wanted to see what other paintings I had, because they wanted to put more of my artwork in the salon.

Well, when I met up with him, and explained that by the Grace of God, most of my things were salvageable - especially the things that meant the most- he asked if I was able to salvage any paintings. I opened my trunk and showed him that I had most of them.

He offered to buy several, smoke smelling paintings right from my car, and explained that if I could wait a few weeks for payment, he would take all of them, as they were expanding the salon and would need some more art for the walls.

So, when I arrived home, I had almost no paintings left... just the few that I kept because they were so important to me...

It was time, I knew, to quit talkin' about painting, and actually PAINT.

Here are some pictures that I hope you'll enjoy- the whole process of the paintin'... and finished projects. I already have an offer from a myspace friend to purchase at least one of them.

Me and my paintin.


24 x 24 - Unnamed as of yet. 11/8/2008 Audrey Korshoff "These Arms of Mine". Also 24" x 24" on wood with a wooden frame, painted black.

**I painted this one, with the intention of it being a gift. He is a new country artist, but longtime songwriter and a friend of mine. He's got a real "soulful" background, and one of his favorite artists is Otis Redding... so... I put on that song... "These Arms of Mine", hit repeat... and found myself with that painting when I was done. Once I was done, I stood back, and it's truly one of my favorites that I've done. It's reminiscent to me, colorwise, of Starry Night.... though I never had any intention of that in there.

I knew I wanted lots of blues, because... well, Otis sings the blues... as does he... And it's more like an open arm hug there, in the light yellow... Flowers need the open arms of the sun, the warmth and all that.... anyway, that's where I got that one. When I paint, I kind of just do it, and it's meditative... that whole image just showed up when I was done. I was hoping to see my friend this weekend, but my budget and his schedule aren't working in our favor. So it will have to wait till I see him after Christmas. Guess he's getting it as a late Christmas gift.


finally finished... Im working on the name. I think this one, I'm gonna call "Love Song". It's 24" x 24" and on wood with a gallery wood frame, painted black. If you're interested in this email me/IM me. It's available for sale.


I will have to build on this feeling.... A very HAPPY me. Wow that was freeing!


36 x 48 - Healing All Wounds - Audrey Korshoff This one is 36" x 48"... on gallery wrapped canvas. It is also available for sale. "Healing All Wounds"

I'm so happy that I started again... it's something that is so fulfilling for me. I enjoy it so much!

What do you see in the paintings? I talked with my mom, and she sees some interesting stuff. I always like to see what people find within my artwork! Leave comments and let me know. :)

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Nashville Trip, Part One.

I promised to write about my Nashville trip and I am going to do it, right now. I don't want to leave out any details, or anything like that. It was so great for me to clear out the storage unit... but moreso to feel so rejuvenated by those friends who really do love me.
The drive...

It was November 1st, my son's ninth birthday. I didn't want to leave until after his birthday was "over" and he was tucked in for the night. So I didn't get on the road until after 10pm, once everything was packed for my trip and I had everything I needed, including cash just in case I broke down somewhere, etc. I had my safety net in place. The kids and sitters were taken care of. It was time.





I got into the car and plugged in my phone. I spent the first three or four hours of the trip on the phone, till I tucked in the last of my friends and got ready to listen to some music for several hours. I had told myself I would be able to stop if I got tired, but with each mile, I just wanted to get to Nashville faster. After all, I could sleep at my friends' places free, but not so on the road.








Coffee, adrenaline and 6 Hour Energy drinks were my friend. I wondered about the stuff in the unit and prayed that my kids pictures would at least be somewhat salvageable. I started taking a mental tally of all the precious things of mine that I had in there. The things my grandparents left to me, including old pictures of them!








I just prayed and reminded myself that there was no way that I could change anything now, so I was just going to let go and wait to see what was left. I was fully prepared for complete devastation.



By morning, I had seen the sun rise shortly after passing through Knoxville. With the time change AND the daylight savings time ending, I gained 2 hours. I took this picture because it just made me smile.... Tennessee mountains and valleys. It just looked like HOME.




Around the same time, I took a picture of me that just explains what a 12 hour drive does to a mom who just went through the past 36 hours with Halloween parades, parties and birthday celebrations.... oh, and no sleep!












I look completely spent...



But it's kind of funny... at least to me.



A very tired, me.

























Arriving in Nashville...
As I got closer, I pulled out my phone again and began updating my facebook status. I found out that my friend Dennis was up, and was waiting for me. I would be able to crash there if I felt like I needed to recoup energy.
When I got to Dennis' studio, I was greeted with a big bear hug, and then a wonderful conversation. We talked about God, about helping people, about the universe, crazy dreams and overall spirituality and our love of others... it was so cool. I was tired, but instead of sleeping, I decided to head to the Public Storage unit to see if I could get any access to the unit to cut a day from my trip and see what I was going to have to recruit help-wise.
I went down there, and found the most unhelpful woman possible at the desk. Apparently, since it was an area of investigation still, the fire investigator had to personally check everyone in and out. So, there was no chance I was even going to see the unit. I stared at the outside of the building, which you've seen in prior pictures, and I was so close, but still no closer to knowing what I was going to be dealing with. I just secretly knew that God was testing my patience, and I decided to enjoy the beautiful, sunny day in my favorite city.

I went to my friend Todd's apartment, where I found two women moving furniture out. I was a little confused, because he didn't have women living with him before, and didn't mention it. Todd, who normally is a little on the wild side, was so very sober, subdued and bright eyed. It was such a joy to find him in such a healthy state. He mentioned that he was just trying to get his life in order again. I could not be happier or more excited for my friend. We sat together and chatted, until I got a call that Mark was waiting for me at the restaurant.






Overall, that day was a gift. I was able to see more friends, have a nice lunch (on Mark!). Mark had been in Chattanooga that morning, but when he heard that I was going to be in town, decided to pack up and head north the two hours.
Just so he could see me while I was in town. How sweet is that?

He's a goofball, but he's a damn good friend and extremely talented songwriter.





So, after our lunch, I told him I planned on going downtown and seeing who I could find from my friends who played on Broadway. I had gotten a text message from my friend Greg... aka Fiddler... and he wanted me to come and sing with him and the band at Legends Corner during his set. There was a Titans game that day, so instead of driving in (parking would have been a nightmare), I parked my car up by Losers, and took a cab from Midtown to Broadway.
As I was facebooking my status in the cab, I decided to meet up with my friend EJ down at the Hooters for a couple beers and to watch the game. We sat there and watched the Titans kick the Green Bay Packers butts. They were 8-0 then...there was a huge amount of joy in my heart, as I was sitting there, enjoying my time in Nashville, surrounded by friends and the town that makes my heart jump for joy.
I had promised my friend Fiddler I would show up for his set down at Legends, so EJ and I made it down there to catch the last hour of his show. I got up and sang with them. I sang "When You Say Nothing At All", but truthfully, this is where memory and exhaustion, plus a couple beers are just having the details get muddied. I remember now because I was explaining the chord progression to one of the guys.
Anyway, we went across the street to Crossroads, and I was waiting on Laura to get downtown. My friend Chris showed up too, and I was playing poker and falling asleep. I was convinced that somehow I would get my second wind. I probably looked like a lightweight drunk, but honestly, it was just the craziness of being up for so long. I only had a few beers.
I told EJ I was going to walk around to wait for my friend and see who I knew, because sitting was making me tired. He was playing poker, so I told him I'd see him later. I never saw him again that trip. Ha!
As I was hopping in and out of Tootsies and The Stage, I saw several friends, gave out hugs, and even got some bad news... my friend Loren had recently passed away- two months ago. I want to just point out that Loren was this amazingly talented drummer and all around great guy. He was that kind of person that always had a smile on his face. It was a fluke accident. His brother, Jonathan plays guitar, and the two of them often played sets together on the back stage at Tootsies.
God Bless Loren and his family.
So, I got to see my friends again, and hugged them, shared stories, showed pictures of the kids... and the common question was, when are you coming home to us?

I explained that I would when I could, but I still had some things to take care of, and that I would probably be back the week after Christmas to see everyone again.


Laura called me shortly thereafter, as I was heading back towards Crossroads to find EJ.





I missed my friend! She had just driven back from a work conference in Memphis, so she was tired too! Here is a picture of the tired two of us.



I should mention how we became friends here, because it's fitting. We both dated the same person... not far apart in time span. We both found out he was a jerk. Lying, sneaking around, all around not the man we thought he was. And, in sharing our stories, we bonded. Who knew?

I didn't take many pictures in Nashville, but the ones I do have are precious to me. Laura and I had, together, a wonderful night, and ended up hanging out down on Broadway, walking up to Printers Alley to sing karaoke together, and we ran into so many people that we both knew, that made the night even better.

We ended up at our favorite place, Losers. It was there, we ran into my friend Calvin and his friend Eric. I simply had to fall asleep at this point, after a full night of running around and no sleep, it was time. I knew I had to be up early the next morning to deal with the whole storage unit business. Part of it terrified me, but I was grateful for the day and night of fun with my friends.



Public Storage and the Fire Damage

Here's where this post is going to get ridiculously spiritual. Not religious, mind you, but spiritual.

Remember how I prayed for my kids pictures, and my grandparents collectibles? Well, I get to the Public Storage office first thing in the morning, just as they were opening, in my sneakers, t-shirt and yoga pants... ready to work.

I get checked in by the fire investigator and led upstairs to my unit, where they open the door. The very first thing I see? My grandfather's face, in his navy blues... in the picture that I had framed of his, with a few of his pins and bands and stuff. Just staring back at me, propped on that old chair of my grandparents (the one I gave birth to Madelyn off the side of). I silently praised God, and thanked him... and was led back downstairs so the workers could begin emptying my unit for me.





























As they brought things down, there were definitely items with smoke damage, some with water damage, and the funniest melted printer I've ever seen... but overall, I was very, very fortunate. They were bringing down BOXES, where other people's items were coming down in piles of ash with rubbermaid bins.

Things had a thick layer of soot, but for the most part, there was a lot that was salvageable.

I think the most miraculous thing from the trip was that the boxes that held both my pictures from me being a kid, and my children's pictures- their baby books, etc. Were all 100% untouched. The boxes barely had any soot on them at all. No water damage, nothing. That to me, is a God given miracle.

I had been in touch with my friend Billy all day, he was going to come help me by bringing a friend over to help me load what was salvageable but not going to fit in my car, into the smaller unit around the corner. His schedule was running late, and he had a show that night. But here's where I nearly freaked out.
Around 5pm, I had gone through 99% of my things, boxed it all up, hadn't eaten since breakfast with Mark and Allison early that morning... was starving and as it was getting darker, I was waiting on another friend to show up (they didn't). The lady at public storage had to go to another office, so she wanted to lock up the gate. I explained that I had to leave that night and that I just had to take the rest of my things and move them from where they were to the storage unit on the other side. I didn't have a truck and being that I was expecting friends, had loaded my car. I had enough things that I wasn't comfortable leaving behind, sitting there, and the fire investigator was unable to help me, even though he had a truck himself. Unable or unwilling, not sure.
I am told then, that there is a security guard coming on at 6pm who will be there through the night, and that I can gain access to my things with the key he has to the lock. My things will be behind Gate A (where the fire was) and I have to take them from behind Gate A, to the front of the building, then through Gate B (the electronic gate) to the back and the new storage unit. I am assured through Tiffany (the public storage girl) that this won't be a problem and I'll still be able to leave on time, as planned.

I phone Billy, almost shaking with starvation and frustration, because I just left my things outside behind a gate and would have to go back after dark to retrieve them. Billy tells me not to worry, to eat my cheeseburger and he would meet me in the parking lot at Demonbreun with his friend for extra hands.
I inhale the burger and sweet tea, then see Billy and a big smile came across my face... We all go down, caravan style to the storage unit, and talk to the security guy, John, who was really very friendly. He speaks to Tiffany on my phone, who tells him it's ok for me to have access, and when he tries the key... it doesn't fit.

That's right. He didn't have the key to the lock to Gate A. Oh, but it gets better. We were able to hoist 3 boxes over the gate, and we have three boxes on the open side of the street, and figure we can at least get those while he's talking with Tiffany again. We were on a timeframe that didn't leave much time for ineptitude on Public Storage's part. We go over to Gate B, and find that the power grid was shut off. Yeah, no power to Gate B. NO ACCESS to the other units.

This is where Billy kept me from going postal.

I laugh, finally, and say, that if this was God's way of trying to keep me in town one more night, it sure was a pretty clear message. We all laugh, and the guard assures me that he will be there all night and until 9am when the Public Storage lady gets there, so he tells me that my remaining things will be safe. We take the 3 boxes and put them into Billy's truck.

I tell the boys that I'm going to make the arrangements with my sitter, and then meet them at Billy's show at Tin Roof, since I now had a whole evening again.

*** I want to make so many additions to this, but I'm going to post it as a part one, and come back and edit it when I have a chance. I want to make sure that this gets posted... oh, and just so everyone knows... I am so blessed! ***

The Tale of the First Generation Furby...



I can't even recall the year, though I'm guessing it was about 10 years ago... Furby was introduced to the world, and it was a HUGE hit when it came to every parent wanting this thing for their kids. Prices went sky high, demand was out of this world...


So, I got my hands on one. For $99, from eToys.com (now defunct, I think). I caught so much shit for buying it from F, Sr. But I bought it anyway, and for years whenever we moved, it was still in its eToys.com box, just being the good little stowaway moneymaker I assumed it would be.

I go to Nashville, and clear out my storage unit, assuming that I'm going to not have any of my things left... and tada... look what I see:

The darn Furby, first generation, still in the original packaging survived the FIRE! I took a picture merely with the intent of sending this to F, Sr. and joking that it was still a hot commodity....


Fast forward to today. I've emptied most of the car out (except for some last minute things) and the Furby was residing in the basement. All the kids had seen it, and I told them that it was something special to me and to not touch it.


That's like telling a kid to please not touch any of the candy at Halloween, apparently.


So... I had to go to Walmart today to pay a bill and pick up some quick essentials. I had the neighborhood kids in and out all day, so I asked my neighbor's daughter if she minded sitting with the crew while I ran out real quick. No problem.


I walk back into the house, and she and her friend were on the front porch, so they left before I walked in... and M, my five year old imp, comes toward me saying, "Mom! Look what I have!", holding none other than that precious Furby in her hand, OUT of the box.


When I flip out, yes, I flipped out. I find out that she had an accomplice in this... J, my NINE year old, CUT the box open for her.... I see the box destroyed on the dining room table.


I lined up all three here:


So, the tale of the First Generation Furby goes like this... It was able to survive the trek from eToys.com warehouse to my first apartment, then my second, then my first house, then my second house, then my condo in Nashville, then to my storage unit, managed to survive a fire in the storage unit, rode home with me from TN to PA, then landed in my basement... and finally, met its match with my five year old daughter.

The furby was able to survive a fire, but unable to survive.... my children.

Sigh. There goes the profit on that one. We just can't have nice things!


Thursday, November 6, 2008

Jesus just called...from Nashville.

Well, not really... but it is time for an update. I was just debriefing a friend on my extra-ordinary experiences in Nashville, and well... my phone rang with a number I didn't recognize. I picked it up, but whomever it was hung up. So, I called back, thinking it must be my phone reception.

It rang once, got picked up, and I said hello... but got no answer. I heard some typing, some keypad hitting and then a guy say "Aw, Come On..." and then... "Jesus"... and then click, the phone hung up.

So, "Aw, Come On Jesus" called me.

I'll update about my trip in another blog, probably tomorrow. It's getting late tonight and I'm going to just get in bed since I'm getting heavenly phone calls.

G'Night!